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Life without phraseology all the ideas, thoughts, and emotions present, but unable to be expressed. This is how I picture my grandfather when he number 1 Immigrated to America with my grandmother and their nine children. Lost, he wanders around, hoping to bump into someone who undersurface understand him. He raises his own children to know Vietnamese and hopes his future grandchildren would also be connected to the language of their ancestors. But when I form my lips into unnatural shapes to speak these words, they come out pathetically.I cannot speak Vietnamese. As a child, the conversations between me and my grandfather consisted of halting attempts at speaking each others language. Only a couple of familiar words could momentarily break the wall that divided us. Whenever I visited his house, I transfer a shaky Choc Eng for his heavily accented He-Ill, and ran off before the shame from my inability to understand could affect me. At the time, I was unaware of the synchronized daily round that beats in the hearts of me, my father, and my grandfather.My grandfather loves playing the violin. Although he is not classically rained and can hardly keep a beat, he loves It and I can sense It every time he plays. When my family came to America, my father struggled to adjust as any teenage immigrant would. Vietnamese was confined to his familys home and English was difficult to learn, so instead, he picked up the guitar and taught himself how to play Yesterday by the Beetles. Forty years later, he claims he still cannot get it down perfectly.On the piano in our living room, he sings in broken English Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away Like my grandfather, medicament Is a part of my fathers design. By the unchangeable threads of heredity, I was also fated to have a connection to music. Just Like them. And it was music that could break the language barrier between me and my grandfather. A single flat solid of music sat in front of me. It was a beautifu l report, no doubt, but we, the All-State Senior Band, were playing it without any emotion.After a couple of unsuccessful run-troughs of this piece entitled Hometown, our guest conductor Samuel Hazy told us to look at measure thirty-three, reflect on a personal memory that reminded us of that part, and frame about It right there on our sheet USIA. Soon after instructing us to do the same In the other parts of the piece, everyones sheet music was filled with our lives in the form of tiny scribbles between the lines of melodies. When we played the piece again, we were finally able to sing our life stories, as Mr..Hazy would call it. Every musical comedy phrase became a vessel for retelling our most precious memories stories of first loves and recollections of childhood memories. No one had to say a single word. There In the music, I finally spoke to my grandparents. As I played measure thirty-three, I pictured them slating here on that boat in the middle of the ocean, memory onto a faint glimmer of hope for a new life in America, looking for their own new hometown. I said thank you for their heroism to come to the strange and unknown America and sorry for being unable to speak Vietnamese. After the concert that night, I received a bigger gouge than usual from them and I knew that they had heard and understood me. Being a part of a family and culture Is more than Just knowing the language. Emotions are enough to Vietnamese, the language of our origin, English, the language of our new home, and music to connect everything together.